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| So I'm making a Xanga comeback......I don't know how long it will last, but I'm trying it again. So looking at my last post, I was right. Shannon is the real deal and I'm so glad I asked her out. 4 months and counting........ ANYwho, so for the most part, life is great. I haven't been able to say that in the past few years. I think I FINALLY have a feel for college, and how much I need to study and how to study to be successful. I am in a realtionship where we both truly love each other. I have definetly gained a few more "core" friends in Oregon and I'm feeling pretty confident about everything in general. So it's the night before the 2009 draft. Niners have the 10th pick, I think they will draft the OT from Alabama. Tomorrow is also Lakers Vs. Jazz Game 4. So LA ALL THE WAY! But I should have a busy morning also. I need to continue to study for my macro econ midterm and my math midterm and me and Rudy are going to check up some apartments for next year. So busy Saturday and probably a study, study, study Sunday. I know probably know none of my friends are going to read this and I'm writing this for me, for something I can look back on in the future. But to stay consistant, I'll end my posts like I did in the past........ So until next time boys and girls......... Night Canada Pieces PTI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! | | |
| My whole life has changed
Since you came in
I knew back then you were that special one
I'm so in love so deep in love you make my life complete
You are so sweet no one competes
Glad you came into my life
You blind me with your love
With you I have no sight
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| Well I made it through year 2 of college, struggling, but I got through it. And these past two years, I've gone through a lot. 3 Surgeries, an infection, a lot of time in hopsitals, the loss of Anna, bad relationships, and self confidence issues. But you know, this June showed me something, that I'm going to be ok. I need to start believing again. I had a lot of things let me down in the past two years and because of that, I stoped trusting people, stopped letting people in, when sometimes it wasn't anyone's fault. But this month has shown me, that I have people that care, that will have my back and take care of me, even if they have to change something in their life to make sure I'm ok. I won't forget that later on. And that's why I know I'm going to be ok accadmically. No, that doesn't mean I can slack and let fate do it's thing. I still need to work my ass off. But if I fail, oh well, I tried. But the important thing is, no matter what direction I go in the future, I'm gonna have support. And it's always nice to have a secirity blanket as a back up plan, makes things a little less stressful. | | |
| Writing this, it seems as hard as it too Brett Farve to retire last week. The past month or so was the first time since you've pasted that I had cried thinking about it. Not because I don't care anymore, but because I haven't had time. But now, listening to the first song we ever dance to, I'm close to breaking down all over again. I mean, I didn't even remember shaq's b-day. Our day to bug the burger king people for the shaq pack and water lol. I still can't believe your gone. Somedays it still feels like I'll come home from my classes, excepting a call from you. I just miss the little things about you the most. The REAL hugs everytime you saw me, even if you were pist at me. I miss those Friday afternoons where we'd watch movies on the couch, going into evenings and eventually falling asleep in each other arms. I miss the support at every sporting event that you could go to. I miss the person that could always tell if something was wrong, even when I could trick everyone else. The only person that would tell me the truth, not on what I wanted to hear. Yea, I loved Paige but we both know that deep down, we loved each other. It's a shame we were just to young and blind to see it ourselves and enjoy it. I still don't fully understand why you did it. We could of made it. With all the shit that you went through Fresh-Sophmore yr. And all the shit I went through Junior-Fresh of college, there is no doubt we could of made it. I know if you were here, you would tell me it's not my fault, but I feel so gulity, that I failed you. It's one thing if I fail at college, or if I fail in a relationship. But I failed you as a friend. I failed the friend that made me feel loved, the love that keeped me going and gave me a reason to wake up every morning. You got me through thick and thin and you still probably will. But I didn't get you through it, I didn't give out my hand for you to hold to. I was about to, I swear I was. If only I was a little more healthier at the time. I would of flown to you, I would of helped work you through it. I should of, I was selfish, thinking about my future. The one time that I was selfish about it, and I lose you. I'm sorry Anna, I really am. I know you've already forgiven me, but I haven't and I never will. You made me a better person. I can never replace that, you had me at my best, even when I was at my worst. And because of that, no matter how bad it is, no matter how good it is, no matter the situation; I am going to keep going, pushing and fighting for what we wanted and believed in. I'm living life for 3 things. To make my mom proud. To make my dad proud. To make you proud. I hope I can accomplish that. | | |
| Well I had just gotten NFL Tour, and it reminded me of my Xanga background of NFL Street. I created my Xanga the first weekend I had gotten NFL Street, in 9th grade. I feel so old.....It's funny, I sorta remember how I felt on that day. Nothing special happened, I didn't fall in love, I didn't break anything, I didn't make anyone mad. I was frastrated at NFL Street and I got bored, so I created a Xanga since people like Dan, George, and Paige had one. So let's see what has changed since then....... 1. The Pats were good, oh wait, nvm...... 2. I thought I needed true love right away. 3. I thought I had true love. I'm glad I still talk to her at least, though she mad at me at the moment, I deserve it however. 4. I could do whatever I wanted to do, with no worries in the world. 5. Tony and Vanissa thought they were gonna get married.....odd.... 6. I wanted CAL 7. I didn't enjoy my time with friends and loved ones as much I should have. 8. My body was unbreakable. I never got sick and nothing ever hurt. 9. All I wanted was a top of the line computer to play Madden....... 10. I never thought about being an adult........... | | |
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